Living Gently

Right here, right now… I am Loving this Bleed!

gentlylivinggently — Thu, 11 Aug 2011 22:46:38 +0000

Ok,

I know I go on,

and I’ve decided that I am meant to keep, “go-ing on”,

for where else in our media driven world do we hear those words? I am loving this bleed?

This menstrual cycle is turning me on, deeply to myself, my life and ALL the juicy in it! I am in day three, my last day, and there has been such intensity this cycle that I am a little sad to feel it leave… The first day had such strong trance to it, all I had to do was let go a little and there I was soft focussed and thinking with all that other 90% of my being… so many levels of juicy… the writing delicious, the mojo riding ecstatic.

Dreamt this morning of sitting with a woman, her friends. We were talking to the transition of mind as we begin to perceive the menstrual power and wisdom, how the body changed. This woman had only just begun two cycles before to even consider her cycle a strength, and she was witnessing changes in her bodies experience, a phenomenal moment I have seen in real life over and over again… this woman in my dream was in awe, so I reached into my bag and gave her one of my CD’s... knowing it would take her another chunk of the way to finding and living in a real valuing of the menstrual experience.

Viva La Valuing the Menstrual Experience… Because You’re Worth It! (see further Gruen Transfer post)

Thanks for hearing me….

Big Love from the edge of the oceans of bliss…

Learning to Love Money.

gentlylivinggently — Tue, 08 Feb 2011 23:58:37 +0000

Picture of My Money Heart

This is an idea I had, and now use, to be in more relationship with the money I owed people that also became the place where that which I wished for had a home too. Over the years I have been known, by others and myself, to not have a great relationship with money. My beautiful Taurian daughter quite clearly described it as… “Mum… you don’t even like money!” spot on 13 year old! So in my journey to shift my relationship with money, and the guilt/crappy feelings I have felt about owing money to others that I have just not been able to pay… which then makes for the place where I am not being in relationship with the debt for I am feeling crap.. you can see the tighter and tighter knot that this can get oneself into. SO, I built myself a “LOVE MONEY HEART” it just came to me, that if I choose to be present to that which I am endebted to so that I may make it different, I needed a way to see it regularly in such a way as to feel better/good/empowered to make the situation different. As it evolved in my use of it, there also become space for placing that which I really wanted to manifest in my life. I make it an offering here… Draw a heart. Make a grid throughout it. Define for yourself what each square in the grid is worth. For me, each grid square is worth $350. Then place a boarder around the defined amount that needs to be represented. Put a dot into the center of the defined area, and link it to an effective descriptor. ie. $xxx for My brother or $180 for the Red Book by Carl Jung. Once the money is there, paid, colour it in, for me in many shades of Red. To look at it now, there are some coloured in squares, and many more to colour in… but the feeling I have when I look at it is that I am getting there, opening to money, that I am learning to love money and be grateful for what I have already achieved. It is my hope in this offering that others may find it useful. If you do end up giving it a go, love to hear how it works for you!

The Ovulation Experience

gentlylivinggently — Wed, 01 Dec 2010 23:58:04 +0000

To feel the younger woman we were, the woman our mothers were, our grandmothers, even our great grandmothers. This is the role of this tool to access the power of the ovulation, the mother line opened to us that we may understand how we are shaped, what the women felt like, that shaped our woman. Each time we ovulate we are deep within the womanhood, using this moment to fully comprehend where we have come from where we held from, this is deep body knowledge that will enhance the way you wear your woman. Our bodies are incredible with what it is that they know, this is an opportunity to listen deeply to the inner layers, the deeper inner sanctums that we carry with us in every gesture and thought passageway. We have been molded, to witness the women, from the inside in the way in which we were molded, gives us greater compassion for the woman we are, as well as the women they were…

As with the other offerings, here in this blog post, in the comments, is where you are invited to share what you felt as you used this meditation… Deep blessings to you delicious woman, for having the courage to find out where you have come from, that you may determine where you will go.

The pre-ovulation experience:

gentlylivinggently — Thu, 25 Nov 2010 00:24:31 +0000

The Pre-Ovulation experience:

The journey you are taking here is to truly harness the power of your ovulation, this moment in time to open to the creative power within. The creativity that could have been a human life has all the power of a human life, your human life. What do you choose? What do you intend for your life? Here is an opportunity to PLAY! As you bring your whole self into alignment, your distant future and the future you that lives just on the other side of this cycle ahead of you. Create and play and once full of intention, feel the support, the actualization of EVERYTHING that you can dream. Feel the Love that surrounds and supports all that you are and all that you choose! This is not the realm to discover the how, this is the realm to know it is already done, therefore you do know how, all you need to do is BE who you are, relax and open, loving you, and your life.

Please, as you use this mp3, open to it and find yourself there, bring back anything you wish to share about the experience here, to this comment section of this blog, for this segment of the journey… there are other posts for the other parts of the cycle.

The TRIAL…

gentlylivinggently — Tue, 31 Aug 2010 05:06:23 +0000

Are you one of my 100 women? Women that are up for an exploration of being women? This trial is for the new work of Living Gently. It’s called, Harnessing the Fertile Force. It is to utilize the cycle that a woman’s body naturally rides, accessing the deeper parts of the cycle for use in our daily lives. Starting with the survey, Here you record where you are now… then after using the work, all four of the guided visualizations, during the cycle, you then come back to the survey, after 2-3 cycles and take it again to measure where you have shifted your world.

I would love feedback from you all, in as many ways as you can offer! I’ll leave this comments section here about the overall intention of the work, to be for feedback about the technical side of the work… What would you like to hear happen? sound scapes? drums? singing? where? These recordings are very basic, just me speaking and when I get into the studio they will become much more rich and textured to hold you there, in the void, in the underworld, in the inner landscape.

I’m going to write another four blog posts about each of them as I get to do them myself…

Blessings of the Blood for there are so many of them!

Katherine.

Breadth of humanity…

gentlylivinggently — Thu, 13 May 2010 23:42:03 +0000

I had a power filled Wednesday. Started with my substitute lecturer not showing up, fine more time to study for the test in the tutorial. I get to this test, and I kid you not, 3/4 of it was algebra. This is meant to be Project Management Fundamentals, and I’m calculating, to three decimal points, the learning curve on a group of human beings that are building 50 concrete boxes called houses, when in the past they have usually taken 20 days to complete one, and the consultant says that they should be able to do it in 17… Oh my Goddess… can anyone else here see the place where my rage comes from and why it burns me so? When was it ok to reduce humanity to this level of quantification? When did we agree to a life being spent doing these kinds of calculations… well I didn’t. I wrote out why this was the most insulting, banal and useless piece of information that I did not consider university education. Felt good, and still does, not a second of remorse.

Standing outside of my uni, I felt great and yet needed to do something in the most other direction… I had heard that there was an incredible installation at the National Vic, Gallery, by Bill Viola. I had not met this work before, and I am so grateful to the sister who spoke so lyrically about the experience left in her body… for that is what I wanted. To be touched gently by art in my body after being been so enraged in heart and mind by academia.

The piece of art is called Ocean without a Shore

I was with this moment between death and life, the veil, for over an hour… it fed me, nourished me and soothed me. Reminding me of the incredible state that it is to be an alive human. That we may loose it in a moment. I could go home after that, knowing that where I put my attention, on the bigger broader parts of being human is as valid as the three decimal points.

May your life be truly rewarding and valid for you!

Blessings of the Blood, Katherine.

the Sapiosexual…

gentlylivinggently — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 06:16:59 +0000

I have found a new name for me! Sapiosexual

One who finds intelligence the most sexually attractive feature.
“I want an incisive, inquisitive, insightful, irreverent mind. I want someone for whom philosophical discussion is foreplay. I want someone who sometimes makes me go ouch due to their wit and evil sense of humor. I want someone that I can reach out and touch randomly. I want someone I can cuddle with.

I decided all that means that I am sapiosexual.”

“I am sapiosexual. I think geeks and nerds are sexy–I often want to rub my clit against their minds.” -Kayar Silkenvoice

Thank you Urban Dictionary!

I just have to share…there is new place that I am exploring that would have a trail left behind me as soon as I can make sense… or perhaps this is where I give myself permission to not make sense… just sense, share what I feel, what I am writing and learning, what is coming to me in the most intense waves…

This is where we know that the blood work is so deeply connected to the sexual being of a woman… release this part of her, and you release her libido, her passion, her desire centers go off!

Erotic Earth is brewing deeply… come along and play!

what we offer…

gentlylivinggently — Sat, 10 Apr 2010 01:20:14 +0000

Just speaking with my new house-mate as to the possibility of a shared vision. I was honoured to be a part of a powerful expression of women earlier this year. Womb Awareness Week was an awesome set of moments, process of a group of women that simply wanted to “make more room for the womb”. In our hearts, our minds, our bodies. The offering by Grace and Kate, the originators of this intention, was so gently held, so softly, as a precious thing to consider by any of us that came to the centre of this place. From inception to delivery, just 3 months. From two and then three a conversation that then opened to about 12-15 of us at the core, another 30 to the circle that surrounded that and there was about 200-250 touched by the whole experience. How we did it is of great interest to me, for it was such a deliciously inclusive and gently power filled process that I know to be at the core of how we can generate the action that follows the vision.

Following the energy. Feeling for what is possible amongst a group of people. The resonance of what the world at large can perceive. We hit walls, we found ways around, we made commitments that we couldn’t keep, we trusted the process, we fell short of what we knew we were worth, we created something out of nothing in the most organic way that I have ever had the privilege to participate in. We aren’t the first group of humans to be in love with something so much you want to share it… from the steam engine appreciation groups to the racist fascists, with what ever intensity or content there is, we as humans want to share our passions. How we share often dictates the feel of the event.

Tis this place of offering that I feel has worth of further investigation. When I look to that which I offer, the work that I do, the moments of StarFire that I share that are deeply changing the way women menstruate, I know that it is from a deep love that I have of my own body and the way that I bleed that fuels this continuous offering… How have I got here? To this place where I am so sure that what I know, what I feel is to be possible for another. It has become almost a crime of self to not keep making my offering, further, wider, shifting my language so that it can be comprehended by a wider audience, finding new and clear ways to say what I have been saying. I have to… seems that’s the only way I can honour this passion, to make an offering…

What passion moves you? What do you offer?

perhaps tis no wonder witches were called baby killers…

gentlylivinggently — Wed, 24 Feb 2010 23:32:54 +0000

…for in the role of being with a woman through whatever she is going through, we are with. Today I had the honour of being with a sister as she let go… let go of her containment, her fear and the baby within her. It was gentle. It was bloody. It was awesome to witness the body respond so deeply to the heart and mind as the understandings came clearer and stronger, so too, did the flow of blood.

As we went home and began to prepare for the process to continue, there was definitely a place where I understood for eons, where women would look to the wise women, the witches of their communities to assist them to release with ease.

This is what I saw.

A woman opening to the truth of the relationship she was in, seeing effectively the viciousness that was becoming entrenched and knowing deeply that she would not bring this child into that relationship. As she let go of the dream, that place where he would look after her and protect her and faced the reality that he was the only thing in her world that she needed protection from, both of them have been set free from the life long commitment that is parenting a child that would not be %100 wanted by both partners.

Tis a big place, one that is rarely spoken to, or painted of and yet miscarriage happens to over %20 of pregnancies. Where do we learn to be with this level of death. Is there only the medicalisation of the moment to hope for? Can we be with it in such a way as to heal as it takes us to the edge of self, where we can renew again?

witches were not baby killers, there was not control over the life and death, there is just a place were we are with woman…

Can I see me?

gentlylivinggently — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 21:56:59 +0000

That incredible feeling of being deeply touched by a film was granted throughout my IMAX journey of Avatar. I howled at the mindless destruction, I melted in the wondrous awe of the fluro forest and I soared with the Dragons. The bit that resonated long after lights came up was the phrase “I See You” … I am familiar with this moment, often spoken “Namaste” in my circles. What struck me was that MILLIONS of people had seen this now, and that concept of being seen, seeing another has just hit the center stage. YAY for humanity on that one.

The Johari window is a model used a lot in Organisational Behaviour, it is a description of that interaction between self and world, also the self and the mirror. My question for myself today, is can I see me?

When we face another, and look into them with the soft gentle eyes of one that actually cares, then seeing another is not an affront, an attack, tis an allowing moment in the knowledge of our shared humanity. I suspect this is where it would and I’ve seen it, get very tricky for some. For if your perspective on humanity is fairly crappy, or your sense of self loathing quite high, then someone seeing you can and does feel invasive and scary, yet another reason to hate the tree huggin’ hippy, for they made you feel afraid.

Perhaps though if we “see” enough we will be able to stop the madness… That which destroy’s lives, land, community. When I look into the mirror I look for what it is that I can’t see yet, my “quest” is the level of self knowing so that when I sit in front of another I feel close enough to be with.

Still musing…

Ta for now